Hi Pink. Thanks for posting. Really down right now and I appreciate your post
Had a bit of a down day yesterday and EXW called and we somehow ended up talking for 40 mins. She started to say she was unsure about her future and what choices to make. I hadn't slept and couldn't STFU I asked her what choices she thought she had and she admitted she had none. She then said she is unhappy and I said I'm sorry we ever met because she might have had a much better life without me. She burst into tears and told me she doesn't regret our M , still cares deeply for me and misses me. She said she can't understand why she left her family and is lost. I told her I truly hoped she would find happiness but I didn't see us being friends anymore.
She then told me that she had been told that I was seeing someone for the last four months I said I wasn't but if I had been I had no doubt EXW would have been pleased for me. She went quiet then answered that she wants me to be happy
She said she wanted to be friends as she saw me as the person she could rely on. I said no , it wasn't really health but anytime she needed me re the kids just text. We said goodbye
About 20 mins later she called and told me she had sorted a small problem in the girls room. I said thanks and said goodbye. EXW tried to continue talking about the kids but it was nothing. I finished the call
Today I got a text apologising for how the call had gone in the wrong direction and how she cared about me and didn't want to upset me. She said she was happy in the M and didn't regret the years we were together.
I didn't answer and she then text something about the kids which I did answer
All this conversation just makes me realise what a waste the last 25 years were. I wouldn't change them now I have my kids but ..........
Sorry for the complete lack of PMA but it's just for a few days
