I am struggling today. We spent the better part of yesterday evening painting our living room. Atmosphere was pleasant but I can't help but feel conflicted with our situation. Here we are improving our home, acting as if all is ok, but knowing she may ultimately decide to leave, I feel that this effort in improving the house is a waste of time and money. Part of me wants to say, why wait for the inevitable and suggest she move out now.

I know if she is planning on following through on separating at the end of the school year, I will not be leaving the home.

I also hate the idea of giving our children the impression that all is ok. The longer the status quo goes forward, the more I feel like I am deceiving my two sons.

I am confused on what to do. Play nice, give the impression that I am ok with the charade until June, or tell her that I find the present arrangement unacceptable.

Don't count the days, make the days count.
Mohammad Ali