I still don't know what to think, other than I may be the queen of blowing it... I havent said a word to H about R, OW, anything since last Thursdays "stuff"; in fact, I've been kind of "backed off" in all ways.... H has been friendly, warm, still joking, then this morning before work I asked if he had a busy day scheduled, and he said "yes, every minute is booked and you can check my computer scheduler, as you obviously do", this was kind of out of the blue and he was irritated. I told him "I really don't do that as a rule", he didn't say anything and just left. So, I don't know if he's "up to something" again, or just "thinking" but he's obviously irritated. I've been trying to put myself in his shoes and think how things must seem through his eyes (????????). I guess I would be pretty irritated if I was trying and felt like I was being watched real closely. But then again, I would tell the other person I was trying -- UNLESS I was really putting them to the test......hmmmm.... I'm Not sure how to handle it....just ignore it is my thought, anybody else got any suggestions? I am NOT going to check his schedule!!! Last night in bed, I snuggled up against him and put my arm around him, and told him how good he felt and that I'd been dreaming of hugging him all day. H said "really? thanks" in a kind of weirdly wistful voice...no ml though, we were both so tired we went right to sleep. I think I know why folks around here call it a roller coaster.
