Thank you Mutatio, Mahhhty, Julie. I was just at my son's school for an event and I saw the woman who referred me for the job. I felt like the biggest loser. I know its just a job, but rejection hurts so much right now. I came home and felt a big "cry" coming on, but it lasted about 5 seconds and literally now its over. So maybe I am coming up from my "down" again.
I left a message for an old friend to meet up for coffee and to ask her for career advice.
Also in Pho news today, I accidentally called H this morning, meant to call my sister. When I saw his name on my phone my initial reaction was "Oh Crap!" and I hung up. First time in my life I felt that way about calling H. H saw the "missed call" and called me back, I was on the line w. my sister and ignored it, he called back again a couple of minutes later and I picked up and had a short but pleasant conversation. This tells me 2 things: 1- I don't think of him anymore when I want to pick up the phone and have a friendly chat, doesn't even cross my mind to call him. I do still text him if I need to about the kids or logistics, but really I can not remember the last time I initiated a phone call or a "friendly" chat. 2- He called me back! And right away, and twice.
Things are thawing a little bit.
Also, an added note, I was watching my son in school interact with his friends and his teacher. He is so happy and well adjusted in school. People like him, he is funny, he is friendly and fun loving. Definitely not the stressed out little boy who I see at home. It was so good to see him, especially when he was joking with his teacher ( a man) because his teacher joked right back with him and I realized that H doesn't do that. I am so glad he has a male teacher this year.
