Wow, mind is blown 11 (time to shift the tides)

[Uphill]

Thank you all for stopping here and offering your support! Im not gonna say it was easy to hear them words, but those words are what gave me what I needed to stop giving a fk. I cared too much from the start. Not just the start of the sitch, the start of "us". I always looked past XF's flaws as any loving spouse does. Now I can see them for what they are. Don't get me wrong, I would honestly to this day say she is a 9+ on a 1-10. Not perfect but damn near and I think that's how she had me wrapped around her finger. That's why I stayed so attached. Not that I think I'm not worthy, but because I know it would be easy for her to "get" whoever she wants. She gets a lot of attention everywhere, the kind of girl who turns every head when she walks into a restaurant.

I can look past all that at this point because I know the her nobody else sees. And it's been ugly lately. As far as feeling the loss and me being in charge, I don't know what I would do at this point. It would be nice to have that chance someday but I honestly feel like I would tell her she had her chance. This is all current feelings so who knows what I would say tomorrow. But I can say that today, the only reason I would hear her out would be for S4.