Good for you, Huddy! I love H. I want him back fiercely. Would I take him back with an "I'm sorry"? - absolutely not. We need MC. We both need to show some real remorse. We need to learn new ways of dealing with issues. I never, ever want to go through this experience again.
I really believe your life is changing for the better. You're aware now of what will and will not work for you. You're demanding respect by your responses and actions. Women love a man they cannot trample upon.
Keep up the good work. Calm and strong. That's you!