In the UK - need help (pt15)

[Huddy]

I took the van home from work last night. I brought home some more packing materials. My W went a bit weird at me bringing the van back - 'why have come home in that?, Why have you brought packing stuff?'. It's as if she's in denial. I notice, however, she has packed the wedding photos away.

W then spent the next 30 minutes with her hand over her face. I couldn't see any tears, but she was shielding herself from something.

So, we're just over two weeks away from move out and the big question is, if my W said to me on moving day she'd made a mistake, and didn't want to leave, would I just let her back in to my life? Unfortunately, the answer would have to be no. Don't get me wrong, I want her in my life, but I feel she has purposefully ruined any chance at R and has made no show of making the M work, or, gave a satisfactory answer as to what is going on. The only way forward, in my view, is a spot of reflection and self examination and a willingness on my W's part to work on the M through counselling and mediation. I cannot and will not just sweep this under the carpet and forget it never happened. I just feel too 'damaged' at the moment.