You know whats funny Enigma... I just ran a half marathon and before I did that, I thought I could do a full marathon, no problem, after the half... I know that I could not at the moment (at least not at the pace I want to). I don't know if I can finish the marathon you mention.
So it has been just about 4 months since she moved out (rather quickly I might add). There has been no positive vibe over that time. I cannot even make a stretch and say I am seeing positives. Just nothing, in 4 months. I read a lot of threads on here and it seems like most get some kind of sign at least one way or another. Some type of interaction. I have barely had any and certainly nothing with any meaning. Is there OM?? I don't know... probably. It would tie everything together nicely. Oddly enough I never think of that.
So what is she doing? Why not just end it? There is no cake eating here, she doesn't like the cake anyway. There is no benefit for her to stay married to me. She has complete independence from me. I could make up positive reasons why she has not brought it up but it is more likely that she just wants me to pull the trigger first so she doesn't look like the bad guy. Or since there is really no difference between being divorced or not given our current state, she just would rather avoid the conversation (I know it is mind reading, but still hard not to think about)? I don't know.
I know, I know... GAL, detach.... I do a fairly good job here. But I can't keep things out of my head constantly. I need to focus on the plan.... wait until the new year and re-evaluate. Darn holidays. At least I had a killer work out tonight.
