I just read the "what you focus on expands" thread....I needed to find it, because I'm really in a state of fear, "waiting for the other shoe to drop". this weekend was so great...H didn't do "paperwork", I know he didn't go to see OW because he was home all weekend other than when he went for a long walk. He seemed pleasant and content enough, although a little bit preoccupied and looked kind of sad at times. It was so great to have him at home....I felt better than I have in 8 0r 9 months I bet.
yet I'm having such a hard time just focusing on the "good stuff" and believing it can be real....there are still inconsistencies from his story about Thursday that don't add up, he's read my email from thursday but not responded or emailed me.... we still havent gone shopping for weights, and he made the comment that he didn't know if he wanted to put anything in the basement that was too hard to get out (???).... He's said he & OW are "still friends" and still talk, which concerns me..... He's told me lies before, so it's really hard to accept this one.
But, I just am so blown away by how great this weekend was...I don't know if he enjoyed it as much as I did or not...I hope so...last night we actually sat and talked by ourselves for maybe 20 miutes after we watched a movie w/S, and laughed about some of the things he told me when we were dating a million years ago.... He is talking about all the mowing he will have to do next weekend, and how much work he's got to do to get his mower running.....maybe that's his way of saying he's going to stay home....
