Its hard to do much when we are feeling sick, so just try to get some rest and take care of yourself
Good that you and H have a good working R
I don't think many of these MLcer who leave in search for happiness truly find it unless they do some inner work but I think your mutual friend said it all that he doesn't think H is happy
Your H may be peeking out and that is great that he can see how special your S is and how proud he is of him
Obviously, your good parenting has paid off..
I think there is always guilt and regret..I also think they know deep inside the full truth of what they did and they will live with the guilt for the rest of their lives even if they make amends..They may try to lie to themselves, but unless there is substances or alcohol to numb the truth,,they live with it
married 14 years H 42 bomb 2/07 IDLYA D final 3 /09 M ow D ow