Dropping the Rope V

[roist]

I know I am not done yet, there are days when the it seem like a path that might not be a bad idea...others it is inconcievable.!

Yes I understand this conflict.

I can also understand your frustration or questioning of the weekends events. If you must analyse it, which version of W was true? Maybe both if she is conflicted. But if as you infer, she was genuinely actively trying and enjoying herself, that is huge. The fickleness of attitude must be difficult to digest, but ye are sharing great moments together. Maybe in time the gaps will diminish or disappear. The good moments appear to be: increasing.