Keeping the door cracked

[beckyb]

It's becoming clearer and clearer that there will be no reconciliation and that I am better off.

H had a car accident and went to the hospital and he didn't contact me until later. Very unsettling but but I didn't completely freak out. He wasn't seriously injured. The truck did sustain damage and I suspect it will affect my insurance.

H is steadily moving the rest of his things. In the process I see that he was not dealt at all with his hoarding behavior. It may have gotten worse. Anything he thinks I am going to donate or sell he wants to "sort through". Even its junk. He is paying a lot of money every month to store things he will never use. He has a real problem.

He took something from the house today that he had to know was special to me. It's something he search all over the city a couple of years ago to find for me. I texted him, "I noticed you took the nativity." H: "Was I not supposed to?" Me: "I thought you would leave it for me although we never specifically talked about." No response.

Last week I got back on track with a few goals. I think I need to narrow my focus. Onward.