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[vise82]

Hey

I made it through my W going to a wedding with out me. She did call to check in on me and the kids and she texted a couple of times.

I have had a blast with the kids, as I don't have them by myself for so long they can be very demanding but its worth it.

Took them to the movies last night and they loved it. Got them to help put up the Christmas lights. Put lights across the second floor roof like my W wanted last year. Kids untangled the lights. just some great memories made.

W cam home with MIL and took the kids to her inlaws for sunday dinner. She didn't say anything to me about how I was or even say hi to me. MIL didn't even say high really, FIL sent along some bacon for me, that was nice. They did say bye

It was like one of those kid exchanges I read on here. It was so fast.

Now the house is empty and quieter. Seem like now they have these sunday diners regardless just because they feel like if they don't they don't know when they will be seeing the kids again.

I have a feeling this wedding is not the silver bullet I was hoping for. I will just have to wait and see.

I still find it hard to accept that my W just doesn't love me anymore because I am still feeling the same love for her, why not her to me?

I can believe that she is willing to walk away from me and our life.

I have been spending time with these new neighbors and they are great, they have a boy same age as ours and they are instant best friends now.

I just don't know why my W wont just give me a second chance. When I seen her today, she was playing her cards close to her chest, I couldn't tell how she was thinking. But there was no asking me if I wanted to go to the inlaws. She knows I have soccer but still they show up and get the kids and just leave so fast like they didn't want to be around me.

Maybe I am just reading too much into it.