This is really going to sound weird, but I think I need permission/encouragement to let go of the OW....I don't quite know how to explain but....she disgusts me so much, I despise her, and I hate what she's done to my life.....but this is the deal....I am absolutely sick to death of thinking of her....I see her as a black hole sucking energy away from my family, from me, energy that should be directed towards what I need to be doing to make things better for me, for my M, for my kids.... So, if I let go of her....I don't know....clinging on to thoughts about something I have no control over doesnt change anything.........other than divert energy... If I just let her go from my mind the worst that could happen would be....what? that H stays involved w/her and I don't see it? and that would be bad how? I look like a fool (already do, so?) Is it a good thing or a bad thing to be at the point of saying "the hell with her"? I can't say I'm ready to actively forgive her though, or pray for her...prayed for the b---h the night that h & she broke up, and did way to good a job...they got back together next day! Do other people get to this point?
