Wow, mind is blown 10

[Uphill]

Thanks guys! I know not to believe anything she says and half of what she does. This to me was a last ditch thing due to OM being confirmed. It would have been tough for me to let that go to begin with. I swore I never would be able to do that and I wanted to try to let that go. Mainly for S4. He deserves his family and that is the hardest part of this for me right now. Now ranking at best 2nd? Tough pill to swallow... I know a lot of people are 2nd best and are ok with that (as ok as I guess can be expected) but I'm not that type of person.

Over the years that we had been together we had a lot of discussions. About life. Kids. Just everything. I knew from day one this was my girl. The one I was meant to be with. In those discussions it came up about many of the things we have now seen in the past 9 months. She said she would never leave. I was stuck with her wether I liked it or not. I would always tell her if she walked out I wouldn't take her back. We wouldn't ever split because she grew up in a split family and didn't want that for S4. She has eyes for nobody but me. And then this all happens.

I now realize it was all nothing but lies. She said them things but didn't mean a damn one of them. I had some lines drawn in the sand and left her cross every one of them. Then I would draw a new one and say that is where it stops. Until it was crossed again. A vicious cycle, which I see now was her testing me. She may not realize it, but ever time I had a limit to how much I would take. How much I would let her get away with. She would almost in a daring way, cross that line.

I feel like I have now dropped the rope. Do your thing b***h. Ruin your own life but do not let it have any affect on my son. And don't come crawling back when you are flat on your face and have nowhere else to turn.

Sorry if I sound harsh but I needed to let that all out...