As I sit here today in my soon to be former house and watch the events unfold around the world I wonder....
Time can be so fleeting. We never know what can happen from one day to the next. I love my children. I love my family. I love my animals. I love my husband. I love myself.
I want to grow and be happy in my life. I don't want to change my fundamental nature of being kind, caring and loving towards not only the people I love, but everyone in general.
I am moving forward in my life. I have made conscious choices that keep me moving forward. Sometimes against my will. Some days I wish I could go back to happier times, but I can not live in the past. I firmly hope my future includes my H, but I have no control over him, nor do I want to have control over that. I am me! My H knows that I love him and I would love to have a future with him. He also knows that the way he is right now we can't.
He still tells me he loves me every time we talk. He tells me he misses me. He still wears his wedding ring and does not want a divorce. He tells me he needs to be alone to figure things out. I have to give him space. I have to be patient.
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
