You are so right, shotgun. I have been reading some of the other threads and I am absolutely stunned by the similarities. They are certainly different in the details, but the similarities between them are all so striking.

At the moment I am wondering if I have it in me to deal with this for another I don't know how long.

I guess I've been dealing with this gradual disintegration in my H's behaviour for so long now (5 years) that I think that another couple of years isn't much time really. But then I'm so worn down by it all, and my self esteem is so low, that I think it might be best to just walk away - for my own sake. And then I think that a difficult time is also an opportunity for tremendous self growth.

One day at a time, I guess.


Me: 48, XH: 42
T: 18 years, M: 15 years

EA/PA 1: 6/2012
EA/PA 2: from autumn 2012-present

BD: 5/2013
ILYBNILWY BD & left: 10/2015

OW conceived: 8/2016
Born: 4/2017

H filed: 7/2017
D final: 28/12/2017