hmmmm....interesting. I REALLY have to find some patience here some where! I want it all "fixed" by three months ago last Tuesday!!!! One thing I find fascinating is the common threads that run through all our sitchs. I'm know it can't compare w/a child with a Developmental Disability, but both our kids had some health problems when they were little and other differences that made parenting a real challenge...we were also always "putting out fires", on too little sleep and with little outside support, and let our R get moved to the bottom of the priority heap. I'm looking for an IC....not lots to choose from and it's more complicated because H is a counselor...hope to get that going for myself soon. H would never consider it.... oh well.
H has never told me he wants a D or to move out....he just sneaks around w/OW! He has said that things were going to change is his life big time (meaning our R) or ELSE....I havent heard that for several mos...The last thing I heard was 2 weeks ago when I "lost it" and confronted him (again) about OW, and he cried and said "don't you think I am hurt and disappointed and want this to work out too"? whatever that means, but a change in tone from "things are going to change big time or else". I guess at the very least he figures he has my attention now!
i don't know if it's been posted on this thread, but just a week ago this morning he told me ILY unsolicited, and said that he knew how much I loved him because I had "stood by me through all this and I really appreciate it". Last Wed. evening he said "I thought this would help you feel more at ease and that's why I'm doing it" in regard to asking me to take S to relig. ed classes where he's always met up w/OW...
As I said, these things make me feel deep down that we will make it, but the journey seems so incredibly long with no "destination" in sight, and sometimes I feel so tired! Sometimes all I can focus on is trying to keep putting one foot in front of the other, but it sure helps to have input from others on whether my feet are pointed n the right direction! Deb
