Well, W didn't bring anything up again, so I let it be. I know that Christmas conversation will come up again. She was voicing concerns over babysitter. Her H is having surgery, so she will be off work for about 4 weeks from Thanksgiving until new years. Only working a week or so in that time. So W assumes that I will be able to take off work and watch the boys. She said "that's how it always worked out in the past". I reminded her that things are different now. She said " well I figured we would split the days of vacation". I reminded her that I had burned a lot of my time due to our sitch. She just nodded.
She seems to want to treat me as if we are married some days. I need to find a way to show that it is not the case and not be an ass about it. Talking, obviously, only goes so far here.
W appears happy, or at least content. Kinda has that sparkle in her eye. I don't know if it's being around me, or being single and "free", or what.
I noticed that she has been wearing new clothes lately. Must be nice to but clothes for herself while I am worried about paying bills. I'm not mad, just noticed it. We talked quite a bit tonight, all pleasant. I wanted to say so much more, and hesitated when I was leaving. She noticed too. I'm not sure what I would have said, but I just left.
I didn't tell her that I wouldn't be at ball tomorrow. The boys know, but I didn't mention it to her. I'm not sure if I should have or not
35 3 boys Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....
