Back on these forums again 3

[Mona52]

H: why is everything one way or another with you. Calm down. It is what it is. I have to make the best of what I got. If I can great if you cant oh well that's the way it's meant to be and roll with the punches

H: time will tell what is in store and if it's Puerto Rico than so be it. I want to stay close to the kids and be able to provide for them and be able to see them when i want

Me: But PR is a tropical island, so it wont be so bad

H: you're missing the entire point

Me: Not really. The kids are right in front of you now. You can text them now. You can see them now.

Me: I understand your feeling of hopelessness.

Me: But I cant be your reason for success or failure. And you cant expect me to be. If you need a little more money per month, there are lots of things you can do every month to earn it.

H: No, I dont think you do. You're not anywhere near in the place I'm in right now.

H: But it's fine, it will work itself out.

Me: I understand depression. And I know nothing I say or do can help. That's not true, i can 100% help you, but you wont take it. You cant see past your misery now and only you can help.

H: Fail or succeed. Nobody give a f(oops) about me anyway.

H: So whatever. live or die f it. It's in God's hands now.

H: Cya

Me: That is untrue. I think about you all day, every day. And some of the thoughts are not bad.

H: It's OK. Punish me. I deserve it.

H: You were always too good for me anyway.

H: I deserve to be where i am at now. In a gutter starving.

Me: Or you deserve a mansion. But life does not give you what you deserve. I don't know anyone who gets what they deserve

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I'm gonna stop here. i go on to tell him a funny story. Some guy we both knew years ago was rich and famous and had a perfect life with the perfect kids, and one of his kids is a hot mess right now. I told him that funny story, but im not in the mood to deal with depression so after the story I stopped texting him.

He texted me back saying he was sorry for the meltdown and i just said No Prob and I am still not texting him. I need happy people to speak with, not sad!