Oh I know - you're absolutely right. I was just making a joke!
WhyUs - thank you so much for your perspective. It really makes sense to me.
He's not a nasty cave man and he's never ever been selfish in that way. He wasn't doing anything outlandish or abusive, just something I wasn't ready to leap into given how long it had been. The fact that I did need more time was a surprise to me too and something that I didn't expect. I suspect it was lack of practice on both our parts. My heart hurts to think that he feels confused and rejected - even if he expresses it by acting like an utter arse.
I'm going to leave him a little note. I've written, 'It was nice to be close to you the other night. It's been a long time and even though I miss you, I still feel a bit nervous. Let's hope we get more in sync soon x'
I hope if he's feeling confused or blamed or manipulated that at least shows him some warmth and affection without playing games. I don't think that counts as pursuing. I think it probably counts as a 180. But he DID initiate with me, which is what I want, so I don't want it to be a totally unpleasant experience for him.
