Things are ok. My H is acting better, but he still won't say he loves me or that he wants to stay married, but he is talking more and sleeping in the bed all night and "trying". We have not had a fight in almost 2 months. Maybe a little longer. Tension is down. He is starting a job in January which is 100% travel and will last 6 months, he will get home to visit once a month. He still does not get along at all with our daughter.
Also I have been interviewing for jobs. Had a promising lead this week but haven't heard back yet.
I am having a lot of anxiety- between not knowing if H will come back around, 2 of my children's stress problems, interviewing for jobs, and I am starting to feel moments of extreme anger towards H that I don't know if I can get over. I still love him, still want him, but at the same time I am starting to also feel disgusted by him.
I have recently come to the conclusion that I might hate him and I might be stuck with him forever so as not to hurt my children.
