It might be a bad thing it might not be a bad thing, either way it has no meaning unless you give it one.
You aren't terrible or a dummy, we all break the rules once in a while, don't be hard on yourself, you are going through an emotionally tough time the last thing you need is the man inside your head giving you a hard time.
- Nobody has ever learnt anything important from happiness and success; problems make us grow - Consult your plan, not your feelings - If you haven't set goals, how can you expect to achieve anything?