Thanks Flight. Typically I am very logical and I like to do a lot of research. I have been reading so many things and so many of them are contradictory. I really struggle with whether or not to contact H. Like if I don't contact him, we will lose our connection, but if I do contact him, it will probably make him mad and he won't reply anyway. I am probably overthinking it.
I have been trying to work on myself and GAL. I hardly spend any time at home. Luckily, I have a good support system with my family, my H's family, friends and coworkers.
I am not sure if he is admitting anything is going on with his "friend" yet. A big part of me feels like I just need to wait for whatever is happening between them to play itself out. She lives over 3,000 miles away and they both have too much to lose to have a real relationship. She does seem to know exactly how to manipulate him into caring about her. I just wish he could see through everything and see that she is just trying to manipulate him.
My birthday is coming up next week. I am not expecting him to say anything to me about it. It makes me sad that he can't even acknowledge it. It is amazing to me that all the love we had before could be gone so quickly. I know I wasn't perfect, but neither was he.
Anyways, that is enough of my rambling. Hope everyone is having a good week. Take care all.
