JulieH the first time I ever looked at my wife and thought she was hideous was when I told her that I wanted half of everything. I had never in sixteen years seen her face like that. It was frightening and now I let my attorney deal with her. When she found out that she would have to pay support she called me late at night to tell me what a piece of crap I was and that it reflected my shortcomings when it came to meeting her emotional needs in the relationship. It was at that moment however that I began to see things clearly. I saw that she had meant to leave me for a very long time but was trying to manipulate me into being submissive regarding finances in hopes of reviving the marriage a few years after the divorce. The final moment of clarity came when she showed absolutely no concern of my being left a cancer patient with astronomical bills and no insurance. It hurts to know that I gave my heart to someone who could not have cared less about me but I look at my son and can have no regrets.
Rouky like many others I live in fear of the cancer returning and seeing a report that suggests that there is something there that shouldn't be is very frightening. They are watching it closely though and we will deal with it if things change. Definitely up for a meeting group to discuss our challenges but it would probably require way too much alcohol. At any rate I have you guys here, thank God!
Cadet I will start a new thread; Lonely Hearts Club II
M:53 W:47 M:15 years. S:18 S's: 30 & 28 from previous marriage. BD: 3/14 Divorced January 17.
