His second A was the only time I was ever so mad at H I was cruel to him. We were in the kitchen and he tried to hug me after I found the picts on his PC. I know I can be cruel with words, so every single time I get mad at H, since before we were M, I choose each word so carefully. I cant stand the thought of me hurting his feelings.
I completely lied to him during the text messages. For example, when I said "You would have done the same for me." LIE. He has proven to me he absolutely would NOT lift a finger if I was starving. I wanted so badly to point out how he did not deserve to eat this and he never thought of helping me or the kids, or he is the one who put himself in this position, he can find a way out. I could go on, but you get the point. But I cant make him feel bad. I do not have it in me.
That is not for him, that is 100% for me. I could not look at myself in the mirror if I was cruel.
Like, my pet name jerkface. PP it was so nice hearing you type it. it totally made me smile. But I would never, ever say that to him. The look on his face would destroy me if I hurt his feelings.
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!
