Was still without the kids the other day, but they had swim lessons starting that evening and W teaches a class when they would start. I told her to bring the kids to me and i will feed than and take them over. I would be at the swim lessons either way the whole time and any chance to see them more i am taking. I battled with feeling i am helping her, but i disregarded and thought of my kids only. W said she would call after her class. She did and said she was going to the gym. My mind was blown that she would not even go to her childrens first swim lessons. I just said ok and got off the phone. She showed up after it was over to pick them up. S4 of course was not happy about this. I have to direct his attention elsewhere and get him to go with her. They were coming to my house the next morning and tried to get him excited for this.
I headed to the gym after they left, and just thought i can do things for them and then take care of myself while she is so selfish and just does things for herself. Pushed it out of my mind as OH well.
Got home and had a bunch of stuff to do and called them to say good night, S cried again. I did not sleep at all, I have a bit of a cold and was coughing all night.
Exhausted but excited the next morning as the kids were coming over for the next few days. They got there and we got some stuff done and them headed back home to relax a bit. We ate some lunch then headed to pick up W's best friends S to take them all golfing. They had a blast. it is so weird that i still interact with the friend and her son but i dont mind.
Dropped friends son off and then took care of dinner.
W called kids twice yesterday and the conversations are so short, like she has nothing to say and neither do they.
I have been doing better not thinking about her too much. I know the kids are not that happy at her place. She always seems stressed when they are there. She will never admit that though.
Her an I have had really no communication still. Just a few small words about kids and schedule nothing else.
I leave tomorrow morning for the wedding in ATexas. should be a good break. I will miss the kids, I am not telling them until after i am gone where i am. Last time itried to leave town they flipped out. They are to be with W while i am gone anyway. I will be back in time to get them as usual anyway.
I am not sure what will happen with us moving forward. I dont think she misses me at all to be honest. Then again i have no way of knowing either. I am just working on being me and the best dad ever. My kids reassure me of this daily and it makes me feel so good.
that is prob all until i get back. I am reading every ones situations and sending a prayer out ot all!
M 37 W 34
T 12 M 8 D 7 S 4
Need break 4/12/15 W no ring 7/7/15
Separate room 4/12/15 Separate living suggested 8/15 W moved out 11/1/15
