in house S (4)

[vise82]

Hey

Last night was a bump in the road, I need to change where we talk because she sits on the couch, I interrupt her watching TV and stand in the door way talking.

I think I need to get her sitting at a table or something.

I am a little frustrated with this money thing, She is fighting over it and call me a nitpicker because I am fighting over $100.So she just want me to leave it in the account like its not my money.

She started to cry again, and said why haven't you been interested in the bills before until now. I told her that she had given me a wake up call, and that I am now focused on making me a better person. I left the room after that.


I let it go last night, wrote her a check for what she wanted for bills.

Later I saw her that night and said we really need to have a budget.




So this morning she is up and we talk logistics, she will be away three nights now for this wedding, staying at her parents house.

So this morning was the last time we will see each other, over the course of the morning we said good bye to each other three times. Then as I left the house, I told her to have fun. Most mornings she says nothing to me.

I think she is still struggling with the reality of the S and needs this time to sort out what she really wants. I hope she finds an answer. I wanted to ask her if she was OK because she was crying but I thought it want a good idea right now. I almost started to cry this morning as I talked to her looking her in her eyes listening to what she was saying and all I can think is this could be that last time that I see her and us like this as it could all change for the worse when she comes back. As she enters the real world with out me not knowing if she will want to come back to me or not.

She is not doing good, not taking care of herself, she has been bingeing on sweets and snacks, gained some weight, her face was all broken out. She was dieting but gave up and has bought a spandex body suit to look slimmer.