Becoming the Anchor, Part 5

[PigPen]

I'm realizing I actually like me. I feel deeply. I love to laugh. I'm easy to get along with. I make friends easily. I love music and dancing. I have some challenges, true. We all have different things to work on because we're all on different journeys. The challenges I deal with are meant to help me grow in some way. It's less about the body and more about the soul. I want to be around things and people that nourish that soul. I want to avoid the things that help strangle and harm it.

I think I'm starting to "get it".

This, Ancaire is the start of healing. True healing. I know you've got some challenges in your situation that you need to forgive yourself for. Many of us do. When I spoke to an IC about my addictions he replied, "Welcome to the human race. And trust me, you're an angel compared to the stories I hear. But you think you're a monster because you played a role in destroying your M, you're not even in the monster ballpark."

Still I struggled. It's taken this entire 10 month journey to unravel forgiveness. You made a mistake, I'll say the same thing - you're just human Ancaire. So you made a mistake. Big (censored) deal.

Forgiving yourself comes along with holding yourself the standard you listed above about who gets to spend time with you, forgiveness is much easier when you surround yourself with people that can see past one act of your story and into the depth of the main character. The more of them you are around, the more you're going to start believing them when they tell you are wonderful.

Soon your own belief about how amazing you are will be the prevalent thought in your life. It will eclipse your pain and the memory of being imperfect.

Congratulations on developing the insight you listed above. It's the first step in a wonderful process of enjoying your self and your life.

Big hug,

PP