Looks like one of your goals have just presented itself to you.
Do you suffer from a degree of procrastination? It could be the reason why you delay things and you need to look inside yourself for the why.
For many it's fear of the unknown, this is a desire to stay within their comfort zone.
Take some baby steps to try to break any habit you might have. Go for one day where you follow up on everything, the tough ones first, and see what happens then do another day and see if you are still alive. On the third day decide to make it 5 days straight and so on...when you reach 30 days, you'll have a new habit.
One last thing that is a comment on your second to last last sentence, as Yoda would say "there is only do or do not, there is no try" set any goal with language that is as if you are already doing it.
- Nobody has ever learnt anything important from happiness and success; problems make us grow - Consult your plan, not your feelings - If you haven't set goals, how can you expect to achieve anything?
