Hi Sotto. What a really open and honest post. I envy your self evaluation and strength to admit that you hold some hope.
I see how much you struggle with what H has done / is doing because as you say the M was mostly good. I think the answer is MLC and that in itself is not really acceptable to any right thinking person We can reason. see things for what they are and look down the line at consequences of actions. They can't.
I applaud your standing while moving forward with your life. I do t think there will be one day when you let go but maybe time is the only avenue left to completely detach
Your list is comprehensive and challanging but I have no doubt you will achieve every one.
Re mixing it up with H. My thoughts would be no. At the moment your are getting a D and while that's happening I would be cautious of emotions running a wee bit high
If I sit back from your sitch and mull it over I feel H will want back eventually but Sotto will be moved forward that bit too far.
Again , your an example to us all of strength , grace and intelligence Throw in the compassion and an ability to find the worlds most extreme GAL and Sotto deserves better than H. ( current H anyway )
