In April my husband of 6 years told me He no longer loved me and needed a divorce. I then went into freak out mode because it was a shock. I then find out he was having an emotional affair with a girl. I emailed her and she never replied but it was over. It can get you in trouble in the military and that is a big nono. We start therapy soon after where he lays the blame solely on me... 12 sessions in things are slowly getting better. He gets out of the military and we move to a new state. We lease a house together move in on August 10 on August 17th > he tells me I want a divorce and I am going to live on campus... I begged ..I pleaded and he just rejected more. He left august 28th. At first we would fight over everything. We have 4 boys and he was doing bimonthly pickups and every time I saw him ..he would be mean.I read DB and started to focus on me. I was now working and life sucked but bearable. 3 weeks ago he took himself off our insurance and it made my premium sky rocket. I called him frantic and rehashed the same issues . I told him I was very emotional and to not get the boys. then I begged him back and that was a huge fail on my part. The next day he came and stayed the whole afternoon with the boys and had dinner with us. The next weekend he spent the night and played with the boys. That same week I wrote an apology letter to him asking him to forgive me ( backstory in feb 2014 I had an event that spiraled me into depression and I was pretty mean) I have not heard anything about the letter. He did call to see how I was doing and then stayed over this past weekend . He sleeps on the couch. I tried to be busy and not all in his face I have been going to counseling and started going back to church
But I am still lost and thinking I am messing things up. I gave him a hug on sunday and I could tell it was forced. I hate that I did that
what more should I be doing? I do not have time for me time since I have four boys and a job and by 7 I just want to crawl in bed from being exhausted.
