You are a very brave and decided man indeed. I am happy for you that you are trying to move forward if not move on with your life.
It make it easier once a person reach that stage, even that level of confidence after such a trauma as we all went through.
The lady was everything good and you enjoyed your time with her, but you may be right saying you may be much less detached then you think. By what you told us, it did not shake the ground for you.
I think it is a long process to let go. Mainly to let go on the idea of a family we built up long ago and tough it would just hold strong as a family forever.
The deep wounds we now carry with us are there to stay. If we move on, it will be with all the hurt inside. It does not mean we will carry pain forever, that we won't learn from all of this, but the wound will be there and will remind us of the good and bad consequences it had.
I need to apologize for not updating my situation. My boys are OK, HS football season is over, my 2nd kid is applying for college and we have a lot of paperwork to do, and on and on we go. I am just very, very busy.
Yet, I sometimes need to help my X idiot H, he still cries a lot, goes to my house, says that he loves me and lately is recognizing he was a complete Jerk to me during our M.
I want to detail all this, I certainly need some wise advice that I many times got here. I just feel things are changing inside of me, slowly, but they are changing.
I really wish I had the meanings to meet you and chat for a long time about all this, kids, work, life in general. But, life is the way it is right now and I need to be the responsible adult right now. So, I let it in God's hands.
