Six to Nine

[mahhhty]

Thanks for checking in on me guys. I have been really busy the last couple weeks. My startup is really taking off and I'm trying to make sure I'm in a place to take it live as early as January 1st. And I'm working on buying some space to run the business out of.

Besides that, here are the cliff notes.

Before D's Party, we got together at a coffee shop for about an hour and a half. We talked about planning for the party and the latest on her disease. I then explained to her that I had been tested and was potentially willing to donate my kidney, but if it came to that I would need to have a real conversation with her before doing so. I eluded to the risk for our children, but kept most of it vague. But I left the ball in her court. She said thank you (first thank you for anything in more than a year). After that she was very chatty about her work. Towards the end when conversation got light talking about herself, she asked me about me (first time in a year). I kept it light, probably said more than I wanted to about myself. Numerous times within the conversation her passive nature came out. One example was a story about her doctor and not asking questions. I was able to chime in and try to validate first and then redirect her passiveness.

The party went off fine my D had a great time. I tried to just stay away from X. When she was at the house. It feels too normal, so I just avoid her. And she had the kids that night, so they all left at the end of the night, which meant the house got very quiet.

I had the kids on Halloween. But I agreed to letting her have them from 3-5. Naturally, she didn't pick them up until 345 and didn't bring them back until 530. Almost ruining the plans we had to go with our neighbors.

Besides that, she routinely tries to be in control of the kids schedule. But routinely needs help, due to work or travel. However she only asks for help in the last minute. And thats when she asks, sometimes she just expects it to occur.

Now in addition to her, her dad needs a kidney as well, and her last grandmother is in assisted living. I truly feel bad for her family and what they are going through.

I don't call this person. I don't reach out to her in anyway besides the kids. I think in a way that was "dropping the rope for me." I have continuously tried to create an environment to promote a future with her. I'm seeing now that perhaps this isn't dropping the rope at all.