Spent the day with my H, getting some legal things taken care of for the sale of the house. No fighting, no drama. Actually felt pretty comfortable. We watched some TV, went shopping a bit. We were affectionate, but the love seems to be gone.
Funny thing is that I can really feel myself detaching. Before I wanted nothing more than to be with him again. Now, I really don't know if I can see a future with us together. He has his single life, I have my plans for the future. We have no plans together. He still keeps everything to himself, never expresses any of his emotions. I can't mind read, nor do I want to anymore.
Can you see and feel " falling out of love" ? I'm starting to think I'm getting there. The pain is almost gone. I get sad, thinking that in a years time the person that was most important in my life will have vanished. We have no children together, he never cared for the animals, nor cares if he ever sees them again, his friends were never close to me, he lives in another city, nothing to ties us together. Often I thought that was a curse, but now I think it might be a blessing.
IDK....just rambling away. Lol!
I think I'm just about ready to drop the rope.....
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
