less confused newbie (7)

[dday]

I know that you all are right. No good will come from the talk except finality. Eventually, I do need that whichever way she goes with it. I will try and pull back more and be more unavailable. That seemed to be helping a bit, and I thought that it was, until I went into the house. I guess I need to go back to meeting the kids at the door. That would have prevented this. I also noticed that I hung around and talked to her more this time, until I saw the pics. So, I need to just stay out of there. Funny thing is, if she comes to my rental, she walks in like it's no big deal. Checking on me? Making sure it is nice for the boys? Who knows.

As far as the S agreement goes, I still am on the deed, and when/if this is finalized W has to buy out my half. So, other than interest the money I pay I will get back. It just makes things tight on me and makes me upset when I write a check for a house that I am not wanted in.

Vapo, I really don't want to date other women. I would prefer my W back. But, I don't want to feel so alone anymore. Maybe (speculation) W is feeling lonely too and that is why she is talking to me more. Again, who knows.

Thank you all for checking in, and offering some wisdom. It is easy to be blinded when you are emotionally involved.

Keep those 2x4s handy, I am sure I will give you the chance to use them again!