Hi guys. I'm okay. H is being petty, and changed the passwords for internet connection, so I've been without all weekend. Got him to tell me again today, but not until I'd spent an hour listening to all his "poor me" declarations of the many ways I've ruined his life.
Apparently, threatening him with a Restraining Order was the wrong thing to do. That's what triggered this onslaught of hateful spew. I apologized so I could get out of the situation. He's planning something ugly, I promise. He told me I'd be hearing from his lawyer but wouldn't tell me why. He tried to tell me I had to be out in 2 weeks, and I just laughed. I can't go anywhere with this case hanging over my head.
If he knew I'd recorded him, I'd be in big trouble. He's now changing his tune about the extortion, saying I misunderstood. I'm going to play as nice as I can for now. I don't like who I'm becoming around him. I have to remember taking care of myself does not equal being out to get him. When he senses I'm in a stronger position, he attacks.
I need to be true to me, without becoming a shrew in response. I'm really beginning to dislike him, though. I'm seeing him so very differently. It helps that he's being so mean and hateful...makes it easier to let go.
Plan for today is figuring out the fastest way out of here, even if I have to go stay with my mom a few months. Not sure if I can, since she lives in a different city. My car won't be repaired for weeks, so I'm kind of stuck. Alarms are going off, though. I've got to figure out money for the criminal case. I've got some help, but not enough. Ugh.
So much to do. Spent the entire weekend in tears, but have a plan in mind. Just need to make it happen now.
