"She sabotaged this marriage for a while, she stopped kissing me two years ago when we had sex, her head would turn away. But she would tell me its not me its her and that I had nothing to worry about she still loved me. She would refuse to have sex. She wanted me to do non sexual touching, but she wouldn't do it her self. The missed communication is just sad.
I am mad at her for not being truthful to me about this stuff and her keeping it in. And for not wanting to work on it with a MC. And for not making me feel special in this MR. That I was just a place holder, an easily exchangeable ingredient in her recipe of her version of life."
Welcome to my world. Listen she is a human who is struggling. She is twisted emotionally and not managing herself well. She is responsible for her actions but maybe this is the best she can do right now.
We have to play the hand we're dealt and this is it. I hate what my wife is doing but am trying to work through it with kindness and compassion. When she divorces me I will know I did everything possible. Fill your heart with love and compassion.
