Feeling Numb

[Elly4]

I haven't been able to exercise much as I live very rurally and between work and my S, I haven't had time for formal exercise. I am making choices to walk, take the stairs, and move whenever I can though.

I wish I could say my sleep is restful...many strange dreams and repeated awakenings. But it is nice that I can just drop off.

Some days I really do feel like I'm ready for this, but then other days I just grieve. Maybe when he leaves I can feel more settled.

Considering my H's work schedule and what is best for our son, we have agreed on a 60/40 split at the moment. He will spend every other weekend with dad and two days/two nights every week. I have no desire to keep my H away from our son as I want him to have a great relationship. Just stinks though.

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