Fixed a big family brreakfast, and pigged out with the boys.
Boys are all 3 asking when I am coming back home, which [censored] and hurts, but I feel so loved and wanted.
Woke up this morning with all 3 of them laying on me or touching me in some way.
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I am starting to see some positives from this experience. Still don't want to be here, but trying to make the best of it. I have many more people in my life that care for me than I ever knew. I can live a much simpler life, and it's nice. Less hectic. I know now, without a doubt, that I won't let my priorities get skewed again. Time with family us more important than trying to provide extra things by working ot. I know I can be happy alone. And I know that I won't be alone forever. Maybe W. May be some one new. I want to keep my family together, but I want W and I to be happy. It's up to her to figure out what she wants... I have enough on my plate getting myself in order. Becoming someone only a fool would leave.
35 3 boys Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....
