Hi JellyB, I love your questions. Please keep them comming.
How and why did she become so disrespectful and disconnected from you? We had a 3 year engagement and 3 years of marriage that were also great. After that it went down hill between kids and a job I hated. I drank to much and was not the father I should have been. I think there's noting left.
I wonder if wife trusts you? I think not. Not with her heart.
Who is Mutatio in his authentic self? I like to travel. I like to create things. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I am sensitive but have built up walls for protection. I'm a good guy. I am drawn to mediation and Buddhism but am not interested in religion. I love working in the medium of metal. I love kinetic metal art, metal scupture and want to create it. I love the mountains. I love the desert. I love the high desert. I love the high altitude desert southwest.
Does your wife know an authentic Mutatio? I think so.
Why does she want it? She is indifferent to me.
What is unfulfilled for her? I don't know.
Is it her? She said to me 2 months ago that I am only her husband, not her partner, not her friend.
It is you? I think she has grown apart from me. She said we were young and in love with nothing else, now the love is gone and she feels indifferent about me.
Is it both? I want to make it work, I love her. She is done with me.
Is there something else she wants to pursue. She wants to work for intellectual stimulation and personally wants be alone to do what she wants to do.
I don't think Plan B is Plan B. My feeling is this is your souls work. It is the only thing of interest to me. I am doing time at work for my pension and have 2 1/2 years left till my youngest child is off to college. That's how long I thought I would work on my marriage.
I think I am still suffering from co-dependency. This is the chain that shackles me. I cannot hope to become my authentic self while enchained. So liberation is a primary goal. Please ask more JellyB, I think we have some things in common. Be well
