I haven't gotten my hands on the book yet. Guess I'll do that next week.
Not sure how I'm feeling at the moment. We spent the day together again. It was ok. Maybe that's why it leaves me feeling empty. It was ok, but nothing has changed. It was almost easier when there was tension, then I could hold on to that. He texted me last night. not just about D. We also joked a little back and forth. It was friendly. I guess that's good. I just have to be patient.
I'm starting to feel anxiety about moving in January. I like the kind of apartment I'm in now, but I won't even come close to that again.
I'm also so so sad that this will eventually force me to leave the US. I can't fathom going back to Europe. That's almost the worst part in all this. Being uprooted against my will.
