Still riding the waves

[mleigh4]

Not much to update here. Tuesday night H TM to say he had an early meeting on Friday and asked to drop off S back with me Thursday night or switch for Friday night instead. I asked S what he preferred, S asked me why I would even ask that question, that he doesn't like daddy's place and wants to come home, not switch a night.

I waited until the next day to reply and just told H he can bring S home Thursday night. I was ready for a good reply if he asked about switching nights again, but he didn't.

We are dog sitting my cousins Yorkie until Monday. It's been.....interesting. My sweet lab is doing fine with it, my S loves and wants to keep him, but my cat wants to kill him. Lol. I have to keep them apart.

H brought S home Thursday night and proceeded to turn off all the lights and give us a laser light show with some laser he got. This went on for about 15 minutes. H seemed very comfortable, hung out for a while and chatted. Then at 9 he mentioned S still needed to finish some homework. And they left part of it at his house. Not cool and I let him know it. He apologized and said it's his fault, time just got away from them. He actually owned it and said sorry, a first in a long time. I suppose in a MLC mind, playing with a laser is much more important than homework! Priorities, right?

Friday morning S teacher told me she forgot to tell me S was getting an award at the assembly that day. I let H know. He was panicked, had stuff planned but was going to try to make it. I am blessed to work 2 blocks from home and school, so it was no problem for me to go last minute. H actually made it, I was really impressed and happy for S to have him there. We were all smiles and proud parents for his academic achievement award. We walked together to our cars after and just did the "see you later" goodbye.

I am still feeling very detached, even though I truly love being near H and talking with him. I love to see the glimpses of old H come out, but I stay aware that is all they are right now. I am finding it easy to stay shut down and distant. I have no desire to initiate a thing. We have not had this small of contact since this whole thing started. Not sure why or how to explain, but It feels very right and necessary right now.

S and I are enjoying a mellow day today and have some errands to run tomorrow. We just love being home together