Still on the first chapter

[Enigma]

Journaling:

Have been great with limited contact via text from WW, but she sent one today. I realize I'm still not detached enough as these texts still get to me. Two in one week, that is a bit much! (j/k)

She's dropping off our cat to the house (which in this case I'm okay with as she watched the animals when I was away for a week last). Also texted about S2 (he's potty training... so she's sending a "reminder" to keep that up as well). I didn't feel the need to respond to either of these so I won't.

I've been thinking about my approach to waiting until Jan 2016 on the path I wish to take. My WW won't file for D as far as I'm aware, considering she is only in this country under my work visa and D would mean she has to leave. She would either have to obtain her own work visa to remain valid or marry OM. I'll continue on the path I am of limited contact and see options in new year, but at some point my patience will expire and I need to ensure I protect myself.

I realize since she's been physically out of the house for over a month, I'm feeling better about me as I continue to focus on me. I've reconnected with old friends who are supportive and whom I'll continue to stay in contact with. The only issue is that none of them are close and are a plane ride away, but technology allows us to chat! These are old friends that I had lost contact with who know my WW and advise that I don't go back to her as they don't believe she will ever change. I wonder if they're right. But then I know if WW wants back to a new R (the old one is gone), there will be much work to do on her end and will take much time if and when they may ever happen. I will continue to grow as I want to and become a better person for me and S2. WW knows where to find me if she changes her mind, but again, the road to MR is not easy and I want to be sure I am at a place of strength within that I would get to decide what I want at that point.

I'm learning who I am at the core and finding out the man I wish to become. I never want to stop learning and love this growth trajectory which is not linear.

Finally buying a new motorcycle (I've never been riding before.. just got my license and took a safety course). Very excited as I've always wanted to ride one.

Get S2 again this weekend so looking forward to it.