Hi mustardseed, This is my first time in your neck of the woods. Nice view and your garden shows great promise. Regular tending is key.
In regards to your husband, a man's disposition does not change like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. He must have cared how people viewed him so he exhibited self control. In private he indulged in his selfishness and treated his family accordingly.
I was selfish during a period of my marriage. I reject that behavior now and will not behave like that ever again. Selfishness is small thinking and indicates weak character. I was a weak man. Weak men don't yell at their loved ones. I am so sorry you and your children had to experience that. People can change, for your children's sake I hope your husband does.
Keep tending your garden and one day you'll be surrounded by the beauty you deserve.
