I feel for you brother.

I learned somewhere that pain is not caused by what someone does or even why they do it, but by the meaning and importance that we giveto it. From that we change the meaning and hence how it affects us.

I have not mastered this but I believe it is true. Give it a try. The meaning you give it does not have to be true but just possible. That shows that your original belief/meaning could be wrong, hence making it weaker.

I'll reread your threads and try offer a more informed view. But from whati remember you have been a rock. I struggle between fight or flight. You are stronger than me. You doubt the outcome but not your path.

Hope you have a good weekend.


R 25 years
M 14 years
S11 & S13
Working on it alone since Oct 2014
M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years)
Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr.
Next R chat Aug'17
Still together