My modelling experience has had to be postponed. I have come down with a really nasty chest cold. The last thing I needed right now!! I have to pack up and clean out my house in less than 3 weeks. Really [censored] to be sidelined right now.
Being sick also makes me emotional. I miss my H!!! I wish he was here to make me tea and feed me chicken noodle soup, like I did for him when he was sick this summer. I barely hear from him now and that hurts me too. Once or twice a week he initiates brief text conversations. They are usually about something funny or a TV show, then I get silence. So frustrating!
I've spent some time reading through the MLC threads. Some days I feel that is exactly what he is going through. He's only 38, but he has pretty much withdrawn from the life he had with me. Moved away, gave up his business, got a tiny bachelor apartment. All he does is work, sleep and play video games. i can't see a place for me in that life.
I'm feeling so dejected today. Yet he still tells me he loves me whenever we see eachother and when we talk. They are just words....I would love to see some loving actions.
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
