This info is good to know...but also depressing. H will likely still be able to trigger me a year from now? Ugh. Do you still love your H, MS? Is that why? Or is it just learned behavior from years of interacting?
You posted this on Msd (Mustarrdseed) thread and I wanted to comment.
Anc, reframe this, learning will set you free, whatever happens things can never be the same. The descent into the well is over, completely over and done with. Your journey is beginning to full health. It is very sad to be here in this place although you are a young woman and there is much in front of you. There is very great joy to come.
Will you be triggered in a year, two years, three years? The answer is possibly "yes" and that is something to acknowledge and to face your pain. Will it matter? The likelihood is yes it will, it is a sign there is more healing to be done. It is your guide. Msd has answered you on her thread about the love issues. Her views are so good.
Anc, your road to freedom is in front of you, it isn't an easy road although at the end you will find yourself and to be you. You can live in full light of day. It is the light of day that brings you to freedom.
There is much to do, once this awful case is behind you then healing can begin, then the cycles and their speed won't matter.
I can tell you that after six months of. NC I still struggle, I still prefer the place I am in now to the daily onslaught of abuse. And my abuse was 4 years of onslaught, not many as you have had.
Truly it is going to ease and you will heal, as you learn and grow this will happen
Stay calm
V
Last edited by Vanilla; 11/05/1511:37 PM.
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
