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[ATPeace]

Yes I was able to speak to the group mainly to fill them in on my position

The program that I have enrolled on is a domestic violence awareness program to look at changing yourself when I was filling in the enrolment form some of the questions they asked I was like no I could never do this but some of the questions did make me think yes I did do that

I did raise my voice in an aggressive manner
I did throw things about in a tempter
I did storm out the house upset after an argument

I did feal that we did not make love enough and I put pressure on her to do it
more often this was not loving this was inexcusable

She was not body confident even though she has a fantastic figure and I did like to see my wife when we made love I should have accepted her right to not want me to see her naked

I did assume that she would do the bulk of the house work something my father expected from mother

My upbringing saw my father being both physically and emotionally abusive to my mother and I vowed never to be like my father however I have been emotionally abusive i did nag her to make love more often

I was jealous and to some degree was trying to control her

The more I look at myself the more I realise what I have done to her and I do not know if there is anything I can do to make things remotely more right / acceptable how do I even begin to show her how sorry I am for how I have treated her

I thought I was being loving how can she trust me arround our children I would never hurt them but she rightly feels I have been abusive to her emotionally

I want to show her that I can change never let her down again but I would not blame her if she did not give me this oppertunity

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all I can do is work on me and never make the same mistakes again