Yes, the constant reminder of the way she feels is unavoidable.The only thing you can do is control how you let it affect you. It really tests your pma and resolve. I hope you manage to not let your feelings show,as that is not attractive. I know this, as I often have battled just to avoid being negative due to poor interactions.
Feelings change. That is a fact. You know this. That is why we persevere. Refocus on you or do something for you today.
You swing between being down because of her treatment and being calm & collected when you think of yourself. I love the attitude of the second mutatio.
R 25 years M 14 years S11 & S13 Working on it alone since Oct 2014 M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years) Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr. Next R chat Aug'17 Still together